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it's been a neat ride. [18 Sep 2003|06:11pm]
[ mood | nervous ]

i'm deciding to leave.. i was originally thinking about keeping this to read other entries (see radiohild comment), but well.. it's not really leaving is it? i can't get this journal to mean anything anymore to me, and so the buck stops here. i've met alot of great people and alot of weird people, and though in due time i might fall off of the face of the earth, some of you people i don't want to forget. barring any sort of insane bad happening (ie: injury, death, etc), this is my last post. it's time to move on from here and find a quieter place under the sun. you know where to find me if need be.

Thank You, Friends.

until we meet again
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the elongated rep-tiles weekend post [13 Sep 2003|05:10pm]
[ mood | amused ]

the write-up, if you want to read about recording, homo-eroticism, and the consumption of hot dogs.Collapse )

the pictures, if you don't want to read the immensely long write-up that over dramaticizes the usage of homo eroticism and consumption of hot dogsCollapse )
oh yeah, and i've the net at home now. let's try this trillian thing.

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ethical misadventures [21 Aug 2003|09:35am]
[ mood | curious ]

completededly now.

maybe it's because i've had my shirt on backwards since 5am that i keep editing this madness..Collapse )

where's the ether?

the wedding weekend [18 Aug 2003|02:47am]
[ mood | content ]

and so here goes. there were a hell of alot of pictures, and after cycling through them all i realized that most of them don't really describe how much fun we had through the day because you don't see flowing cans and cups of booze floating about.
the story and some picturesCollapse )

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there's more? [12 Aug 2003|08:22pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

that's right, there isCollapse )

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that.. one entry.. the life pondering one... [12 Aug 2003|01:36pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

get a drink, i might be a whileCollapse )

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[03 Aug 2003|05:19am]
[ mood | groggy ]

she called. i dont think i've ever smiled for a straight hour on a telephone call before. it was nice closing my eyes and imagining what she was doing, listening to stories, telling some, remembering. when i was awoken by the phone i thought it was my alarm clock because i'd fallen asleep watching futurama, kind of wondering and giving up all in one big shot. it was nice though. made me remember why i had feelings. and so here i am awake. lied in bed for about thirty minutes pondering life, drifting asleep until a cat jumped on the roof twice in a frenzy, waking me up. but i sit here wide awake and still smiling, thinking about things ahead, things behind. staring at the screen with an inner grin. everything i wanted to say in a big long story would have made everything weird and so i tried to make it as cute as possible. apparently i'm good at that. just to know that on the other side of the phone i could hear a smile in the voice was good enough for me. now i just have to work on the sleep demons keeping me awake.

Friends Only Now. Lookout [01 Aug 2003|01:00am]
This journal is Friends Only. comment to be added.
If you comment and i don't add you, give it time, or give up completely.
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interview ala the_undertow [30 Jul 2003|01:39am]
[ mood | curious ]

[1]: where do you get yer great smile from?

now that's a nice compliment. i cant really tell which one i got it from. maybe it's from the both of them? yeah i'd say so. quite the good looking pair, i must say.

[2]: whats one television show/cd that you are embarrassed to watch/listen to?

well, there's that avril lavigne, kylie minogue cd thing i have going. i like catchy cute girls with songs that are tolerable. kinda hide them so that no one really finds out, but i guess thats going to change now, is it? not really into watching stupid tv though, i'd rather watch A&E all day.

[3]: are you a righty or a lefty? even when it comes to masturbation?

lefty. i do everything.. with my left hand. and for some strange odd reason i've got the weak right carpal tunnel hand. kinda.. er.. weird.

[4]: ever had a one night stand gone horribly array?

not really no. i haven't really had the opportunity because i'm one of those freaky guys who, wants everything to be cool, or right about it.. a good mood. though i have been caught by parents at strange times.. walking in, showing up just at the WORST time for me..

[5]: ever run into a transvestite or contemplated dressing up?

once, when i was about.. 20 or so? my girlfriend at the time put makeup on me. she and her friends wanted to prissy me up, you know, see a cute boy in makeup, but she stopped because she said something to the extent of "most boys look like cute boys in makeup. you look like a girl". and that was it. i'm not sure about dressing up, you know. that'd be an arduous process and i think i'd be creeped out if i looked like a girl. maybe, one day. maybe.

rules and regulations:
1. Leave a comment saying that you want to be interviewed.
2. I'll respond and ask you five questions.
3. You'll update your journal with my questions and your five answers.
4. You'll include this explanation, as I have done here, so that others can take part.
5. You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.

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almost done. [28 Jul 2003|04:23am]
[ mood | content ]

19.0.9., the song i've been writing for ages. almost three years now, has begun to take shape. it's a three part short story of sorts, and part one is there, almost completed. the only difference is that will have to do with the perils of drive, a bit different than just the regular drive[2] thing, a different person was interested. so now it's two people and an interesting name. quite the ring to it. and so begins the arduous process of sending cds and files to eachother to work on songs. the best part is that neither of us really knows what'd be going between eachother. sending back and forth does have it's disadvantages, but well, to have someone interested in doing drive[2] things, whilst im still working hard at the reptiles keeps me focused, moving, my head staying off topics that i tend to lag on, drag out, bring down.
and vacation is almost over. i go back to work wednesday. the problem with that is, that i dont want to. this week mostly alone has been good. even though there were a few days where i wanted to throw in the towel, there was support from friends all over the place. i thank you for that. i just wish cell phone minutes were free so that i could call every one of you and thank you. you know who you are. and so folds the cards of another quickly passing vacation. i'm already nervous about going back. maybe it's time to look for a new job, while i'm at it. we'll give it two weeks and then decide.

3 where's the ether?

goinulage usage nil. [24 Jul 2003|10:49pm]
[ mood | sore ]

dear diary,
i've been hit in the groin with punches and steeltoed boots and a hockey puck. but not until now can i say "i went to a dirt track racing place today, to watch modified stock cars race with my mom and dad. my dad and i were waiting for my mom who ran to the washroom, and he and i stood to watch the last cars race. all of a sudden i get this horrible, HORRIBLE pain in my groin. seems a dried mud rock the size of a baseball pounded me there. somehow it flew over about 3 rows of people sitting in chairs. ow. it fucking hurts."

hello strange bruise placement, redish hair

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for personal use only: [22 Jul 2003|06:51pm]
[ mood | content ]

new icons wanted. pictures being taken. new layout equals new icons. working, work in progress. week has been casual nothing. nothing really accomplished, except for the expected upload of the song Backtracking the grind for the radiohead sampling idea. playing slowly with reptiles website. waiting for a sunny day. i'm sorry i'm not here for you as much as i'd like to be. but i want to try. just read through everything because you know i might be there. folky, stars. bought. bring a cd. broad daylight, dying hair today, hopefully. a mix of red and brown. agh, entries become so fragile and so out there. i never spell anything out anymore.
laughable interestingness of music reviewers.Collapse )

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[22 Jul 2003|01:15am]
[ mood | drained ]

i get the feeling that i should be somewhere else. smiling, laughing. it came like a sudden shift of weirdness watching tv.
anxious feeling in my stomach telling me that i'm in the wrong place at this moment of time. someone's looking for me.
and it's creepy.

2 where's the ether?

three hours of calm felt like enough [20 Jul 2003|06:42pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

holidays started early with a bunch of chewing. i did not go in to work on saturday or sunday and that may get me into hot water because i am going to officially be on 8 days off starting tomorrow. late night sounds startling me, playing a game until all hours of the next day, there was no energy left to go. a few times caught by drifting thoughts about people and change and how it all falls on heads at the wrong time. when everything seems so cut-in-stone perfect, the glass gets broken. strange glances, bedhead, written in codes. silly strangeness. nowhere started where this is ending.

as long as the day is dull, it should be slow and soft, the loud inane secret will be safe kept.

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rambling, nothing, blackness, brain-filtered. [18 Jul 2003|05:36pm]
[ mood | amused ]

i can make layouts?
which means i have a new layout. mojofilter helped out with that comment link thing that just always came out wrong.. i was sick of the blues. today, i call one point five day, in that i have roughly one point five days left until vacation. one week's worth, going to get sammerine to dye my hair, and then the following:
hide out, play xbox, write music, fringe, and possibly just run aimlessly around in fields in the middle of the night for numerous hours, and take pictures of the animals by the moonlight.
ps: happy 64th birthday hst. i quit.

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[12 Jul 2003|10:20pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

the last day that i dont go to work.
the last day i lie around all day thinking.
the last day i consider quitting.
the last day i'm completely pained.
the last day i dwell.
the first day i change
the first day i save
the first day i decide
the first day i move on
the first day i'm glad where i'm stuck.

today, i've done absolutely nothing, but buy groceries and lie around. purchased two new albums today, and they both were injected in my head from people on my friends list. shows i'm an impressionable young man. this movie Saint Jude on tv right now, is mesmerizing in a strange way. effective, interesting background noise. makes me feel more alone.

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fair warning for the US. [09 Jul 2003|09:12pm]
[ mood | determined ]

this is a reminder to myself of two things:

A.You're going to New York in 2005. Meet some old friends you've never met.

2.Your pre-planned flight to the Bay area has been delayed because they won't give you the time off. So, work out a plan to go in early 2004.

make strings. tie around hand. listen to gord.Collapse )

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lost art of keeping a secret [08 Jul 2003|04:10am]
[ mood | peaceful ]

Rep-Tile Re-LatedCollapse )

5 where's the ether?

elbows down, chin up. [03 Jul 2003|06:57pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

i've been fooling myself into thinking it'll get better, the pain will go away. but it's not. it's getting worse. unbearably so. i'm back where i started.. right here. and so you wont find me online, typing. perma-away.. until something gives, until i have to continuously wear a brace, take a leave of abscence from work, whatever...i'll be lurking..ill comment here and there, send an IM or two.. but aqua_swing@yahoo.com is where you'll be able to find me, and maybe sometimes grinding in the shade.
cheers, for now.

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omniscent. [02 Jul 2003|01:00am]
[ mood | exhausted ]

it has never been so dizzingly hot.
looking at the screen, under red light,
i'm dizzy. air conditioner on high, it freezes in here.
but if i leave, a horde of angry heat pushes right into me.
i'm starting to feel like i've already stepped into half of a dream world,
and that everything that's been happening in the last few hours is a weird dream.
that might explain my oddities, thought process and the like.
it's just not here,
but it does happen to me too.

5 where's the ether?

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